two years ago today - part one (6/5/6)
6/5/4 (sounds kind of magical, huh?)
Working at the Tahoe Faire as the Sheriff Hugh Sportingwood (yes, I am), I was
walking the grounds after the opening gate ceremony and happened to glance to my
right, seeing what at first appeared to be some kind of Renaissance Faire Wench
Petting Zoo; a fenced in space with no booth or stand; nothing more than an open
pit, a tent and two women, seemingly doing nothing but standing. I was about to
nod and move on but something stopped me. For I looked and I saw her. And a
feeling as strong as the one I felt when I first looked into the eyes of my
Father consumed me. Even though she resembled no woman I had ever been with
before in my life, I somehow sensed that this this woman might indeed be "The
One". I walked towards her, said hello and when I saw her eyes, any doubt I
might have had back in the street (very little) was gone. My God! My heart raced
like a rabbit and my palms started to sweat. I couldn't leave, and so I ended up
hanging around her as much as possible during that run, feeling (and I'm sure
coming off as well) like some retarded teen lost in a high school crush with the
most popular girl in class. I did, as a master in the art of under-statement,
manage to tell her that she had really pretty eyes, which apparently scored me
points early on because, for some reason, most men don't look at her eyes at
all! Other than that moment of Don Juan sophistication I did little more around
her than stand and smile for what else could I do? Finally I'm face to face with
this woman, THE WOMAN - only I happen to already be in a (rather unhappy)
relationship and living with someone else, someone not her (I found out later
that she too was feeling the same thing about me and was also with someone else
(equally unhappy), someone who was (also) most certainly NOT "the one"). I hurt
as if I had lost something important, somebody truly special; for it seemed that
I lost my true love even before we had ever had a chance to be together; live
could be so cruel sometimes...*
*revised excerpt from "in the eyes" (12/8/5)
That was two years ago today.
And in these last two years I have learned that, upon rare occasion, life can
also be very, very kind - for since then the two uncaring, unwelcome people in
our lives have gone away (well, one has...the other has been shown the door a
number of times but is still obviously struggling with the map) and Katie and I
will soon be together as husband and wife.
6/5/4/ ...magical indeed...
I love you Katie Grinn!